Unbearable Agony: A Personal Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It began on a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I worked as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with increased force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early twinges on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition often begin with intense discomfort around one eye that lasts for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, every day or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to organize life around unpredictable pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records propose bizarre remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do signs appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some individuals.

But leading neurologists believe the official guidelines need revising to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Carolyn Park
Carolyn Park

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